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			<h1>What&apos;s wrong with me?</h1>
			<p>Day 00774: Wednesday, 2017 April 19</p>
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		I spent most of the day programming a Minetest mod instead of working on coursework that was due today, and it quickly and unsurprisingly came back to bite me.
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		My <a href="/a/canary.txt">canary</a> still sings the tune of freedom and transparency.
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		I had a strange dream in which someone cast a spell on me allowing them to control my leg movements.
		I walked around an unfamiliar town, and ended up put under arrest for not knowing who some actor was.
		I got cuffed, but kept walking &apos;cause I couldn&apos;t control my legs.
		I asked one stranger as I passed if they knew where I could get the key and I showed them my wrists.
		They unhelpfully replied that those were cuffs, not keys.
		Thanks.
		Eventually someone told me how to break the spell on my legs, sort of.
		I had a temporary tattoo on my shoulder.
		If it wore off, I&apos;d regain control.
		They seemed oblivious to the fact that you can speed that process, but that hint was enough.
		I rubbed my skin until it&apos;d completely come off in a slightly-sticky mess like temporary tattoos do.
		I regained control of my legs and was about to confront the one who&apos;d put it on me, but then I woke up.
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		I spent the day loligaging, then finally got on my coursework.
		In a hustle, I completed the <a href="/en/coursework/CS1102/SnakeEyesCount.java.xhtml"><span title="Programming 1">CS 1102</span> assignment</a>, then my <a href="/en/coursework/HIST1421/Forms_of_government_in_ancient_Greece.xhtml"><span title="Greek and Roman Civilization">HIST 1421</span> essay</a>.
		The essay was a total rush job.
		I&apos;m pretty sure that&apos;s my worst essay yet.
		I then graded the work of other students and submitted my remaining discussion posts for the week:
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			From the sounds of it, ancient Greece wasn&apos;t a country, but merely a region.
			Sparta, a city-state, was basically a tiny country.
			Athens was the same.
			They banded together sometimes in times of war, but so do larger countries.
			Sparta was the more militaristic one though, and focused almost exclusively on the art of war and the art of subjugation.
			Because of that, Sparta required military service of all male citizens.
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			Life in Sparta certainly was simpler.
			There were no choices of what to do with one&apos;s life to get in the way, and the dwellings were simple barracks.
			I think it really shows that simpler isn&apos;t always better, though it did make them superior on the battlefield.
			Additionally, Spartan women had many more rights than Athenian women, which was better.
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			Sparta certainly was a dictatorship, especially near the beginning.
			It did get a bit better before it was conquered by Alexander the Great though.
			Sparta&apos;s desire for strong warriors went overboard.
			Then even threw babies into a ravine if they weren&apos;t strong enough!
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		I never even touched the assigned reading for <span title="Programming 1">CS 1102</span> this week.
		I also didn&apos;t have time to touch the ungraded quiz before it closed on me.
		At first, I blamed my lack of enthusiasm for coursework this week on my <span title="Programming 1">CS 1102</span> professor telling me not to write so much.
		That&apos;s not it though.
		I had this same problem last week, before that even happened.
		What&apos;s wrong with me this term?
		Why am I not interested in my studies?
		Why can&apos;t I at least keep focus long enough to get my studies out of the way early?
		I&apos;m not really sure why.
		I need to work on improving my focus and willpower this coming week though.
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		One theory of why I can&apos;t keep focus might be that I don&apos;t like these courses.
		I mean, one&apos;s a history course.
		I&apos;ve never had an interest or an aptitude in history.
		The other is a Java course, and also an almost-beginning-level programming course.
		I want to develop mobile applications at some point, but as a language, I don&apos;t like Java even a little.
		As for beginning-level programming courses, I&apos;ve already taken too many of them.
		I know what I&apos;m doing on a beginning level already, and I like to think I can handle more complex things.
		While the inability to let loose on the learning journal assignments in the programming course certainly isn&apos;t helping, it&apos;s guaranteed not to be the (sole) cause of my recent lethargy.
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		The reading assignment for the week, should I find time to get back to it, was as follows:
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			<a href="https://docs.oracle.com./javase/tutorial/collections/algorithms/index.html">Lesson: Algorithms (The Java™ Tutorials &gt; Collections)</a>
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			<a href="https://docs.oracle.com./javase/tutorial/java/nutsandbolts/flow.html">Control Flow Statements (The Java™ Tutorials &gt; Learning the Java Language &gt; Language Basics)</a>
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			<a href="https://www.youtube.com./watch?v=49qW6dVLJJQ">CS1102 Programming 1 (Java) Unit 2 Lecture 1 - YouTube</a>
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			<a href="http://math.hws.edu./javanotes/c3/index.html">Javanotes 7.0, Chapter 3 -- Programming in the Small II: Control</a>
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		After the rush had subsided, I also submitted my learning journal assignments for <a href=/en/coursework/CS1102/#Unit2" title="Programming 1">CS 1102</a> and <a href="/en/coursework/CS1102/#Unit2" title="Greek and Roman Civilization">HIST 1421</a>.
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